I trust all is well with you this evening/morning… … … I’m NOT REALLY writing TONIGHT… Or I should say… I’m NOT REALLY gonna write about our “CURRENT” TOPIC “TONIGHT”… … …
TONIGHT I’m gonna HAVE a FEW WORDS with MY PRECIOUS BABIES… AND I “GUESS” the “REST” of “YOU” “NOSEY PEOPLE” IN OUR “BUSINESS” that’s gon READ THIS TOO… … … LMAO… … …
“TODAY” I READ ME SOME “WORDS OF WISDOM” from SOMEONE that “I” RECOGNIZE as “MY FAMILY”… … … ISN’T IT FUNNY HOW YOU CAN “KNOW SOMETHING” as REAL as the BACK OF YOUR OWN HAND, but “UNTIL” “SOMEONE ELSE” SAYS IT IT DON’T REALLY SOUND ALLL THAT “SMART”?… … … DON’T “Y’ALL” “HATE” WHEN THAT HAPPENS?… … … IT AIN’T JUST “ME” that’s a LITTLE BIT “SLOW” SOMETIMES”… … … SO “DON’T” ACT LIKE Y’all DON’T KNOW WHAT I’m TALKING ABOUT… … …
AND NOT ONLY did those WORDS “REFRESH” my “SIGHT”… They GOT a “CERTAIN” “CURIOSITY” STARTED ABOUT “MYSELF”… And THAT CURIOSITY “HELPED ME” to SEE “CERTAIN” THINGS ABOUT “MYSELF”, and “MY LIFE” that I “NEEDED” to SEE as CONCERNING the “WEIGHTS and DEMANDS” that I PUT ON “MYSELF”… AS WELL as “EXACTLY” WHY I BEEN “SO DRAINED” and “UNMOTIVATED” LATELY… “ASIDE” from the “OBVIOUS” BULLSHIT that I just WENT THROUGH… … …
AND WHAT I FOUND OUT and “ALREADY KNEW”, but “NEVER” REALLY SAW IT as a “FACTOR” into WHY I BEEN so “DRAINED” and “UNMOTIVATED”… … … “I” “DON’T” WANT MY LIFE to “CHANGE” into “EVERYBODY ELSE’S” LIFE WITH ALLL THIS, the WAY “EVERYBODY” WHO HAS a “HIGH DEMAND” ON THEMSELVES for THIS OR THAT REASON… And LIKE “I’VE” BEEN LIVING for “FORTY YEARS” NOW… … …
AND WHAT I MEAN so that I’m “CLEAR”, is that “NOT” ONLY HAVE I “NEVER” LIVED a “DAY” IN THIS DIMENSION FOR “MYSELF”… “I” STARTED WRITING THIS to “START MY LIFE” WITH MY QUEENS, and to BUILD “OUR CITY” and “FAMILY”… … …
I “NEED” to START MY LIFE WITH MY PRECIOUS BABIES, and “WE” NEED to LIVE “FOR US”, “BEFORE” WE ADD THE “WEIGHTS and PRESSURES” of “EVERYBODY ELSE’S” PROBLEMS and NEEDS to OUR LIFE and REALITY… … …
I HAVE BEEN in a “NON STOP” WAR, and “NOW” I’m BEING CYCLED into “MY CONCRETE INHERITANCE”… AND NOW the WAR is TURNING INTO “GOOD DAYS”… I “NEED” “START” and BEGIN BUILDING MY/OUR LIFE WHILE “MAINTAINING” as MUCH of “OUR PRIVACY” and “CONTROL” of WHAT “WE” WANT to do WITH OUR LIFE, “FOR US” as “POSSIBLE”… … …
I “NEED” to be “TOUCHED” by MY QUEENS… I NEED to BREATH and FEEL what “PEACE and WARMTH” FEELS LIKE… I NEED to HAVE “FUN” with my BABIES “WITHOUT” ME HAVING to be WORRIED ABOUT “OTHER PEOPLE’S PROBLEMS”,… OR BEING BURDENED BY THINGS “OUTSIDE” of “US”… … …
OF COURSE I’m “NEVER” SAYING that “OTHER PEOPLE” that ARE “LIGHT” ARE “NOT” a “PRIORITY” of “MINE, MY FATHER and the KING”… What I’m SAYING is that “I’M” NOT “HAPPY” with “CONTINUING” to “COMPOUND” “MY” RESPONSIBILITIES to “OTHERS”, and “I’M NOT HAPPY”… … …
ONE of the WORDS of WISDOM that I READ TODAY… Talked about HOW MUCH “BETTER” YOU WORK/OPERATE WHEN “YOU’RE” “HAPPY”, RESTED and ALLL that GOOD STUFF… AND I KNOW FOR “FACTS” that that is TRUE… … … MY LIFE “NOW” at “FORTY” YEARS OLD, is BEGINNING to “LOOK LIKE” “MY LIFE”… AND NOT SOME SHIT I GOT THROWED INTO FUCKIN AROUND WIT “PEOPLE” and SHIT… … …
SO WHAT I’m SAYING is “THIS”… … … I’m GONNA KEEP the COURSE that I SET ALREADY… I’m GONNA WRITE “EVERYDAY”, but I AM gonna TAKE MORE THAN just “ONE DAY” to CHILL out the WEEK… SOON I’m gonna BEGIN to MEET with my BEAUTIFUL QUEENS HERE, and START what WE NEED to START… … … WE’RE GONNA BEGIN to MEET WITH OUR PRECIOUS LOVES “NOT” IN MILWAUKEE, “PRIVATELY”… AND “I’M” GONNA BEGIN to MEET WITH THOSE of “FAMILY” that I NEED to MEET WITH SO THAT WE CAN GET OUR “CITY PLANS” FORMULATING “CONCRETELY”… … …
I NEED MY BEAUTIFUL, PURE, PRECIOUS, SWEET, LIFE GIVING, NOURISHING, BREATHTAKING, GENTLE, KIND, LOVELY, AWE INSPIRIING, NURTURING, HONORABLE, WONDERFUL, SEXY, DELICIOUS QUEEN to UNDERSTAND… My PRECIOUS LOVE YOU “KNOW” the “RESPONSIBILITIES” that ARE LAID UPON “MYSELF”, “YOU” and “OUR PRECIOUS LOVES”… AND “MY” RESPONSIBILITIES to “ALLL” THOSE of FAMILY that ARE “LIGHT and LIFE” that BELONGS to the KING and YAH… … …
Momma I’m SEEING CLEARER that “THE MAN” has to be TENDED TO, KEPT and MAINTAINED in HIS “DESIGNED ACCURACY” BY THOSE that’s RESPONSIBLE FOR IT, if “THE KING” is GONNA BE the “EXACT” IMAGE given of HIS FATHER… … … I’VE “NEVER” HAD THAT FROM “ANYONE”… So I’m LEARNING that that is “PRIORITY” for ME to BE “EVERYTHING” I NEED to be for THOSE THAT RECOGNIZE “US” as FAMILY… … …
“ONCE” WE MEET Momma, “THAT’S” WHAT I NEED for “YOU” to “HELP ME” to “GROW IN” MY LOVE… WE CAN GET to ALLL THE OTHER BUSINESS of our FATHER… It’s “NOT” GOIN “ANYWHERE”… YOU AND I “BOTH” KNOW THAT “FOR SURE”… … … BUT I’VE “NEVER” BEEN TAKEN CARE OF, NOURISHED, COMFORTED, TENDED TO ACCORDING TO MY DESIGN, REALITY and AUTHORITY Momma… I HAVE “ONLY” BEEN “FIGHTING and DEFENDING MYSELF”… … … “THAT” is what’s GONNA GIVE ME the “LIFE ENERGY” and “MOTIVATION” I NEED to “WANT” to GET AFTER MY FATHER’S BUSINESS with the AUTHORITY of “MY CROWN, IDENTITY, KINGDOM and STRENGTH”… … … “THAT’S” WHAT “I’M” MISSING Baby… … …
KING MAAZYAH
Ysrayl Life 